I disappeared from the blogging world for an entire year

I think the simple fact that you clicked on this post possibly because you were just curious to know if the girl who once published this blog is still alive, means you deserve an honest explanation. The sudden silence on here was completely unexpected and unplanned- as most of life tends to be. I couldn’t find the time or desire to explain my absence sooner. Without going into too much detail (because over the course of my silence, I realized how much of a private person I actually am), at the start of the year, a loved one got incredibly ill and my world fell apart. Thankfully, I can report that the situation had a positive ending and now, here’s December, and I’m just continuing my attempt to glue myself together again. 

What does this mean? 
It means that I’ve had a whole lot of time to think. To be sad. To be angry. Worried. Anxious. Stressed. Happy. Calm. Relieved. All the human emotions, really. In no specific order. I’ve lived about 5 years in one. 

And now that I’ve finally collected myself and my thoughts long enough to write here, if I’m being completely honest, I’m not sure what this blog can or will become. I’m not sure what direction it will take. I can’t say my motivation has completely returned in every aspect, but there’s definitely a new sense of strength and determination in me that I need to explore. 

For now, all I can say is thank you for sticking with me. I’m glad we’re friends. 

Birthday: the day of birth

31 Today was my official day of birth and as it has been for the past few years, the day mainly served as a day of reflection. A day for me to gather all my happy, sad, depressing, excited and hopeful, deep thoughts and stir them all together to reflect on life so far. Age and getting older is such a big deal for most people but I've never really thought that much about age until recently when society started telling me that my life is basically over. I think everyone has extremely high expectations about life and any plan that doesn't fall into place suddenly has us feeling like failures. This year I hope to finally let go of all the anxiety I've felt about where I "should be" in life and just be where I want to be. I have a few tricks up my sleeve so I hope this will be my life-changing year. I urge everyone to start forgetting about their age and just live. I mean, after all, it's not like any of us really act our age, right?...

P.S. This letter to myself on my birthday post I wrote a couple of years ago still applies...

2018, the visual year

orange sweater

Years ago, I would've been hitting "publish" on my first blog post of the year on or around the 1st week of January and I'd be relishing in the fact that I was already off to a great start at being a good, organized blogger who will eventually make this my full-time career because helllloo, everyone does sooner or later, right? Not this year, though. I didn't even bother to do a highlights of 2017 type of post because I honestly couldn't be bothered to write one and I assumed no one would bother to read it. This year, I plan to continue being a major photo-taker which, of course, is totally different than being a photographer. I just want to create photos that are visually appealing and that people can relate to and experience only positive emotions when viewing them. I want to become more comfortable in front of and behind the camera because honestly, both are equally important. 2018 will be my visual year. Hope you enjoy and let me know if you're doing something similar...


Cambria Christmas Market

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In the small village of Cambria on the coast of California, every December, a magical kingdom in the form of a Christmas Market comes to life. Every year, it grows in size and a trillion more lights are added. I've even heard it being compared to Disneyland, which, as most of us know, is quite a comparison although thankfully, the market is about an arm and a leg less expensive than the happiest place on earth. If you're in California, no matter what corner of the state you're in, I encourage you to visit the Christmas market (or Cambria, for that matter) at least once. These pictures do not do it justice probably because I'm just terrible at night photography but, that's a story for another time. 

Winter 2017 Bucket List

I think every year, everyone and their dog says something along the lines of "I can't believe it's already almost Christmas!" and so, for that reason, I try not to be that person. But this year, wow, I really CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S ALREADY ALMOST CHRISTMAS. Why does time fly by now that I'm no longer 12? I know it's not officially winter just yet but I know if I don't write this now, I might never write it. There's so many things I'm looking forward to this holiday season.